As the world turns…

Sep. 22nd, 2025 07:37 am
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 Happy Autumnal Equinox. 

I was in the emergency room last night. I had terrible gas pain at the ballgame that immediately shifted to my lower right side when I got up to leave a few hours later. We went to the ER after I ate and it still didn’t feel any better. They didn’t find the reason for my pain but they did find a UTI and liver and lung scarring. 

I haven’t told Cal about either of the latter because I haven’t seen my specialists yet. I’m hoping it’s a nothingburger, and there’s no point to scaring him if it is. But I’m scared about it, very much. I wish I felt like I could tell him, but he’ll make himself sick with anxiety if I do. 

The ballgame itself sucked. We got slaughtered, 9-0. But the outing was fun regardless. 

Now I’m at work, exhausted because I had less than 6 hours of sleep. But I don’t have a full day of sick time, and I’m probably going to need to leave early anyway for the followups with my doctors. Primary care, gastroenterologist, pulmonologist. The only one I’m likely to get in to see right away is primary care, but I’m calling all three. 

I’m also locked out of my computer at work. My password wouldn’t work. I’ll get my coworker to send an email to IT to unlock it for me. 

I didn’t make my word count yesterday; I didn’t get home from the hospital until 10:30 PM, which was far too late to do any writing. I’m going to make an attempt to do so now, before work. I don’t see why I won’t accomplish it today, at the very least.

Sigh…

Sep. 21st, 2025 08:44 am
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 Well well well. It’s Sunday, and we’re going to Lehigh Valley today. I can’t wait; we’re leaving in about 45 minutes. I’m all showered and dressed, and I need to discuss with Dad something that he needs to get for us (shampoo). This man… Okay, so, yesterday in the morning I told him that we were going on a daytrip today, so if he wanted to go shopping it had to be yesterday. He says he doesn’t want to, Cal and I got everything we need. 

That evening he rambled off a list of things we need this weekend because we’re running out. Liiiiike…? What did I just tell you today? 

So he’s going to go out to get stuff, apparently. I was going to ask him to get veggie snacks for me too, but I have the little bowls of olives, even if I don’t like them. They’re not terrible, just not to my taste. I can eat those. But I used the last of the shampoo, so we kind of need that. I should do Dad’s checkbook to make sure he has enough money before I tell him to use a debit card, but I’m pretty confident in my bookkeeping with him. 

I need to take some ibuprofen. My wrists hurt. I’ll probably take the prescription bottle with me, you know, so that I have it if I end up in more pain.

Speaking of pain, Cal’s wrist is starting to feel better. We were both skeptical about it but if the brace is helping, then it’s helping. Not going to look a gift horse in the mouth.

In terms of gaming, I am stuck in Eternal Blue. I can’t win against the Shadow Dragon Fist in the tournament; I might go level up somewhere, probably the White Dragon Cave. Maybe the Meribian Sewers. I need to make sure I have all the best armor, to be honest. I think that will help immensely. Might ask Ed for a strategy, too. I’ll pass it eventually, I know, it’s just a pain in the ass until then.

Anyway, I’ve wasted quite a bit of time faffing around on my ipod, so I better get to writing so I make my word count. Maybe. I’m not sure I’m going to bother with it.

I don’t know what to say.

Sep. 20th, 2025 11:48 am
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 I don’t know what to write, really. I’m at a loss about a lot of things lately. 

The psoriasis is coming back in my ear canal. I’m going to use the dermotic and see if that takes care of it, otherwise I’m going back to the dermatologist. I’m so tired of my ears itching. 

We went to Walmart today to shop, and I called in my Vyvanse prescription. It’s not ready yet; we were going to go to Acme while we were out there but Cal forgot that we were going to do that and I didn’t realize it until we were clearly on the road home. Hopefully it’ll be done by tomorrow morning, because if not I’m screwed for Monday. If that happens I may just call out. I only have half a day of sick time, but I do not want to deal with work when I don’t have my Vyvanse. It’s bad enough with it.

In other news, we’re going to a baseball game tomorrow. It’s an hour and a half away, I think. And I just checked, yeah, it’s about an hour and a half away. We filled Cal’s car with gas this morning, which ran us $50, but it should be enough to get us there and back and for the week. I hope. 

We didn’t shop at Lush last night. I should ask Cal if he wants to do that today. And I just did that. We’ll see. I’ll do some anyway, regardless of if he wants to or not, because I want Lord of Misrule and Snow Fairy. Snow Fairy will be around for a while but Lord of Misrule will not. 

Shit, we forgot to buy shampoo. Sigh…

Anyway, I’m going to write a bit more, and then I’m going to play some video games. I need to stop doomscrolling. I need to get off Facebook altogether, for that matter. It’s so bad for my mental health. 

Money Money Money

Sep. 19th, 2025 07:40 am
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 I am a step closer to solving that stupid bank rec. The numbers now make sense, even if how they’re behaving does not. I might leave it the way it is; it balances like this, and the checks that were returned were taken out of the system after they cleared, so they were originally there. Now that I’m thinking about it, I do think that’s the solution. I’ll leave it alone. 

Today I have a massive pile of scanning, and I have to do the discrepancy letters. Both are tasks I pretty much enjoy, except for the filing part of the letters, that can get fucked. But printing and going through it and stuffing the envelopes? Amazing that I enjoy that work, but I do. I also am now within $6 of the May Shoprite Benefit reconciliation, and Ken really might tell me to just stuff it in the bank fee, because I’ve been trying to figure it out for so long. We’ll see what he says today.

I didn’t do anything enjoyable last night, once again. I’m watching free speech being stripped away in real time, and it’s hard to do anything when the hoods are coming off. People are getting in trouble just for quoting the man himself now. I don’t understand. If you don’t like what he had to say, why the fuck are you stanning so hard for him? I don’t get it. 

But I need to stop doomscrolling. I need to. It’s bad for my mental health. Like, really bad. 

In other news, I showered twice in a row now! I think getting up with Cal and taking my shower immediately after him is going to work out. I feel gross still, and it’s been two hours, but it’s tolerable. 

We need shampoo this weekend. I might use the Paypal credit card to do the grocery shopping this week, if it comes in time. I know, I know, I didn’t want to do that, but we’re going to Lehigh Valley this weekend and we’re already down to $700 from our pay and my retro. That seems like a lot, but it really isn’t. We need pants; we need groceries; we need gas. There’s a lot that we need.

We’ll see what happens. 

I’m going to see if I can get Cal the Ghost comic book for Christmas. It’s hardcover, so he’ll appreciate that, I think. I also want to get some Lush, but we’ll do that shopping tonight so Cal can get stuff, too. Lord of Misrule and Snow Fairy are available. I’m going to have fun shopping. I know I just complained that we don’t have money, but… I deserve nice things. At least, that’s what I’m telling myself.

Money in, Money out

Sep. 18th, 2025 12:06 pm
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I got my retro pay, finally! In a month and a half, I’ll have another raise. The retro is gone already, and I need to tell Cal that. But otherwise, I got all the bills paid this morning, and it felt good to not have to ration the money and decide who gets paid and who doesn’t. 

All except the Pennsylvania Hospital bill, that is. Their site won’t load. I’ll call them at lunch and pay by phone. I am not sending a check by mail. 

I took a shower this morning! Cal has been getting up early to shower and I decided that I would jump in after him. I think that might work to solve my hygiene problem; I hate being wet. It makes me feel slimy. Alas, I must get wet to get clean. It’s a burden to be sure. That’s half of why I miss working from home. No one cared if I took my time showering. 

Speaking of my work from home job, I’m claiming the work PC as abandoned. I’ve tried to get Orlando to respond to me, and he just flatly ignored my message asking to buy it off him. It’s been two years. I think it’s reasonable to believe that he’s abandoned it. I’m going to see if Dad can crack the windows password with linux so I can put things on it that I want. It’ll be nice. 

In terms of my current job, Ken is out today! It’s his birthday, and of course he doesn’t want to be here. I didn’t want to be here on my birthday, either. We had a party for him yesterday. The first thing he said when he walked into the department was “You people are insane” and everyone let out a cheer and started clapping. It was pretty funny. And pretty fun. I ate so much fruit. 

Today I’m going to take it easy at work. I’m going to do my work, of course, but no pushing myself. Days where Ken is off are so valuable to my wellbeing. I don’t have to worry about someone seeing me take a break for the most part. I am going to give the Regional bank rec another go, but if I can’t figure it out, I’m just going to tell Ken that I can’t find it and see what he says, if he wants me to keep looking or not. I can almost guarantee that he’ll tell me to hide it in one of the numbers, probably the monthly benefits, because that’s where the problem seems to be anyway. I just need to find it.  

Analysing the FF2 remake trailers

Sep. 18th, 2025 12:47 pm
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Wanted to write this because people are already making extremely confident pronouncements about what the game is going to be like (and whether it will be properly classed as a remaster or remake) based on around two minutes of footage shown when it was announced. I'll be looking at the reveal trailer from the Nintendo Direct, and the announcement trailer posted by Koei Tecmo right after.

I mostly wanted to find out exactly how much of the footage we have is cutscenes, because my impression is it's most of it, and it does look like the cutscenes haven't changed very much, except for the obvious graphics enhancements. I also wanted to highlight what gameplay footage we have, because I think it hints at what could possibly be quite extensive changes.

Read more... )

In conclusion, we have ~12 seconds of gameplay footage and somewhere around 1-2 minutes of cutscene clips - I'm not going to add up the seconds, but when you factor in the logo display time and how much content overlap there is between the trailers, I'd guess closer to a minute. From the teeny, minuscule amount of gameplay footage, there seem to be some quite significant changes. Anyone saying they can already tell it's just a cosmetic update is talking out of their ass.

These people are useless.

Sep. 17th, 2025 07:33 am
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 Ugh, UPS is so useless. My package is still in Lawnside, with no updates in two days. I’m getting pissed off. There is nothing wrong with my address, and yet UPS consistently has trouble with it. Their automated system is full of shit, too, and by the time I get it to admit I need a human person, it just tells me to call them. 

Useless, useless, useless.

Anyway, tomorrow is Ken’s birthday, and he’s going to be out of the office, so we’re throwing him a birthday party today. He’ll be 60 tomorrow, so it’s a big one. They’ve got decorations and everything. Donna covered my share because things are still so tight for us, which I am grateful for, but I feel really, really bad about. 

Speaking of money, I have learned that my new paypal card is indeed a Mastercard, which is. Bad. We’ll have to put that away and not max it. We need to ween off the credit cards. I thought it would be okay as a line of credit, because I can only use that online and only for places that take Paypal. But it’s a fucking credit card

Sigh.

Yesterday at work—Okay, okay, so, my clothes were in the dryer still, and I haven’t been wearing my khakis because the button was loose, and I was afraid it would pop. But I didn’t feel like going to the basement for clothes, so I threw on my khakis. It’s lasted that long, what are the chances that it would pop today?

Pretty fucking high, as it turned out. So I need a new pair of khakis now, and Cal needs new jeans. Thank goodness for the retro pay that I’m (supposed to be) getting this week. We need to make reservations to Hell’s Kitchen this week, too. 

In terms of hobbies, I once again did nothing last night. I didn’t quite get a thousand words written yesterday because my hotspot stopped working, as it does now. I thought that was fixed a few days ago, when I didn’t have a problem at lunch, but apparently not. To be fair, my phone was telling me I had no bars, so maybe that was it? Who knows. I do have two doctor appointments tonight, so I won’t be doing much tonight. 

But for now, I’m going to try to get my word count in.

sleepy kitties behind me <333

Sep. 16th, 2025 01:54 pm
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Health Talk CW: Chronic Pain, Menstruation, Mental

Being a person who menstruates has been so rough the past few days. I took about two days to rebound from the booster+flu shots and then my period started. Of course I was back at work and the labor of my job really exacerbates my aches and pains. Ugh. My hands and shoulders are so sore, I woke up this morning dreading going into the office (even tho I love my clients.) Managed okay, just... feeling disoriented being home and seeing what needs to be done and knowing I can't do all of it, even if I was capable. Being frustrated at myself for hurting isn't good for me but it's still a hurdle I'm tripping over.

Recently I've been writing a to-do list of daily/weekly goals where I draw a checkbox next to something I can do and it's helped give me direction when I feel lost/worried I'm forgetting something. It's set up as a list of options which has done wonders for not pressuring myself. I started writing one out for this week and it's helping me calm down - that I won't "fall behind" whatever made-up metric is behind the anxiety smog in my head.

The plain and simple answer is I'm tired, in pain, and need to slow down, and do a little here and there, but mostly rest. I still feel guilty for resting, especially when I see the sun shining outside, and idk. I thought it might help to admit I've been having a tough time and that it's normal, and it's okay to talk about it.


Misc.
The Boulet Brother's Dragula: Titans S2 Cast Reveal Dropped and I've watched it twice already <3_<3

The only thing I was hoping for was there would be no cast repeats from the first Titans season but honestly I can't complain that it's Abhora and Evah. Abhora's cosmic angel eater look is still one of my favorites to this day hhh and I was always crushed Evah never got to the final stage.

SO PUMPED ABOUT DISATERINA AND PRISCILLA CHAMBERS. We got to see Priscilla in Resurrection and I've been hoping to see her settled in her skin on Dragula again. Honestly same with Jade and Dollya (who I hadn't even recognized hooo), really happy to see them.

My favorite look from the trailer was honestly Jay Kay's, the suit and overcoat with that makeup omggggg.


Last year I found out Bonne Maman does an Advent Calendar so this year I ordered it early and we're saving it for December. I buy all sorts of jams/preserves but they're a favorite of mine and getting to share them with Lovey is my favorite present <3_<3


Foods I made recently:
&; Seafood noodle stir-fry with zucchini and egg.
&; Ground meat tomato sauce with okra over rice.
&; Green Hibiscus Iced Tea.

A smorgasbord of topics

Sep. 16th, 2025 07:33 am
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 So I screwed up. I was hoping against hope that the mistake wouldn’t affect the bank account but we ended up $12 in the hole. Cal put $20 from his plasma donation money in the account to save us from an overdraft fee, but it still sucks like, a lot. 

Cal wants us to get a notebook for me to track stuff in. We’ll see what happens. 

I’m at work early today; I got up on time, did the checkbook, took my pills and ate breakfast, and got my lunch and snacks together in record time. I also upgraded my ipad to iOS 26. It’s going to take some getting used to, but it looks pretty, at least. I like the games app. I like the presence of a journal. There’s an app I don’t quite know what it is yet, but I’ll figure it out. 

Today is my ex’s birthday, and I just wished him a happy birthday. I hope he has a good one. He’s dealt with a lot of shit lately.

So, work. Yes. There’s a problem with a bank rec, as I’ve said. ISSI is kicking out numbers that it shouldn’t. If I take the difference between what’s in ISSI and what my paperwork claims I should I have and subtract, the amount is the same as what I’m off by. The problem is in ISSI and I can’t find it, but now that I’ve narrowed it down, I can probably figure it out. 

So we’re going to Lehigh Valley this weekend, and Cal is going to drive up and drive back in one day. It seems to be a bit much to me, but that’s how he wants to do it. I’m looking forward to it; I’ve never been to this baseball stadium, and I’m looking forward to getting a shot glass for them. 

I don’t want to be here. My head is killing me, and I’m exhausted. I’ve been having strange dreams, but that’s to be expected, I think, with me stopping the prazosin. I just took tylenol; hopefully that helps before work is to start. 

Anyway, I got a nice comment on Darknened Heart last night; it was encouraging and I’m going to write. 

Lots and lots and lots and…

Sep. 15th, 2025 07:33 am
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 Oish.

So I forgot to throw my clothes into the dryer last night, so they were still damp this morning. It threw my whole morning off. I’m here at work, though, right on time, so it wasn’t that bad.

I have the hiccups. 

Last night was such a waste. I did absolutely nothing but sit on my ass and doomscroll. I had plans, man, but the impulse to doomscroll is strong in this political environment. Especially with people all in a tizzy about Kirk. I don’t care how bad of a person people think it makes me, I’m not going to mourn a white supremacist. The funny thing is, all people have to do right now is quote the man himself and you’ve got attempts to doxx you. And no, there is no “context” in which saying that it was a mistake to pass the Civil Rights Amendment and that trans people should be stoned to death is somehow “better.”

I wish people would stop pulling up the empathy quote, though. That one simply proves that the ass didn’t have as masterful a grasp of English as his sycophants want to think he did.

So, work. Yes. I’m not sure what I’m going to do today. My catch-up from being out on leave is finally done, and I have the bank recs to work on, but I really, truly do not want to do them. It’s going to be a massive pain in the ass to figure them out. I’ve got to, though. I’m going to start with Regional and just wipe the worksheet clean, start over from complete scratch. I don’t think it will help, but we will see. 

Man, I am hot. This sucks. I need to get on my own ass to exercise a little bit. Cal and I went through a bunch of boxes that were under the table and threw out a bunch of stuff, and found some other stuff. I found an R4 card that, sadly, doesn’t seem to work anymore. I wonder where my DSTwo card is, but I’ll find it eventually. In the meantime, I’m going to put more stuff on my hacked 3DS. I think there’s a lot more room on it, and I’ll need it for our trips in October and November. 

I applied for a Paypal credit card, lifting my credit freeze for 24 hours, and got enough to pay for the hotel rooms. Also bought some stuff I’ve been wanting for a while, none of which I need but none of which is a waste. I’m not buying any video games, that is. Although I really want to, now that I’m thinking about it. C’est la vie. 

Anyway, it’s time to write a little bit. Ciao.

Ugh…

Sep. 14th, 2025 10:13 am
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 I did things a little backwards today; left to go grocery shopping, ate breakfast on the way, and took my meds when I got home. Which is fine, of course, as long as everything gets done. All told we spent about $80, I think, and… I forgot about a couple charges. Of course I did, why would I remember everything? Sigh…

So we’re likely going to overdraw, unless Dad is willing to give us money. Again. I need to stop doing this. One of these days it’s going to get me into deep shit and I can’t afford that. I’m getting another raise in November, and then again in May, so things should get a bit easier. I said that with this first raise, of course, so maybe I’m full of shit or trying to work with hopes and rainbows. We’ll see. Cal’s supposed to be getting a raise, too. 

He’s changed his mind about what he wants for his birthday, though. Now we’re going to Lehigh Valley to watch a hockey game. I am… unamused. He’s letting me bring a video game system to play during the game, but I’d much, much rather stay at the hotel. But it’s his birthday, so I have to go. We’re going to go to Atlantic City for our anniversary. Go to Hell’s Kitchen, but stay overnight off the island. And next week we’re going to a baseball game in Lehigh Valley, too. Hopefully there’s enough retro to do all of this and get the tires for the car. 

Anyway, after grocerying I got into jammies. I’m in pain, and I needed to wash my clothes anyway. I don’t plan on going back out for anything, and Cal is going to be going to a friend’s house for the football game. He’s getting roast beef for dinner; Dad and I are having fish. 

I ‘m not feeling well at all, so I think I’m going to wrap this up and put my head down for a while. 

Ladiesbingo 2025 card

Sep. 14th, 2025 05:34 am
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A Series of Unfortunate Accidents Potatoes Coercion Feudal Ties / Master and Servant Domestic bliss
Everyone thinks we're doing it Dreams and Nightmares Daily Rituals (Morning Routines / Nightly Prayers / Meal Times) Alternative Professions Simply Irresistible: Sex God (or Goddess)
Warning Signs Season of Mists (Autumn Colours, Sensations, Activities and Festivals) Wild Card Closets, caves and other tight spaces Hopelessly Devoted
Love Explorer Trapped! Unrequited Love Rescue me: Damsels (and others) in distress
Warm Blooded / Cold Blooded Use of Textures Identity Crisis Water Spirits Hard and Soft

Wheee!

Sep. 13th, 2025 12:58 pm
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 Heady hurty. :(

I have a scratch on my nose that I obtained at some point last night. It was a rough night, and it’s been a rough morning. My head hurts, as I’ve already complained. I don’t feel well. I want to place a YamiBuy order but half of what I want isn’t in stock. Which is well enough, since I’m not sure we’re making all of the bills this month. We’ll have the money, just. Not in time. 

So I have a delivery coming. A drink maker I enjoy was offering free samples of their new line, so I jumped at it. The package was in Lawnside and out for delivery and they. Fucking. Sent it to Brooklyn. It’s back in Lawnside but because it’s the weekend, I’m not getting it until Monday now. I am irate. I was hoping to have them for Monday, but, eh. It is what it is. I’m getting my Kain keychain, at least. I can’t wait to show it off to my friends.

Cal is going to take me to get my little waters that I use for meds at night and first thing in the morning. Little 8 ounce bottles. Speaking of meds, I need to talk to my psychiatrist. The Latuda is working wonders for me, but I have to take it mid-evening and it’s knocking me clean out by 7:30 PM. That’s not a tenable situation. I need to be able to function until at least 8. I’m not sure what to do. Maybe I’ll wait and see if I acclimate to the sedating effects, since I just started it. Dr. Google says that it may ease in a few weeks. We’ll see. 

I’ve done grocery shopping and gotten lunch, and I’m feeling a bit better now. It’s almost 1 PM, so my morning is far gone and pretty much wasted. But that’s okay. As long as I start doing stuff now, it’s fine. And I just found out that Within Temptation released new music, too. It looks like their next major album might be another Hydra-type album, where many of the songs are duets. That’s fine with me. New music from Within Temptation is excellent no matter who it’s with. 

I’ve got Within Temptation playing on shuffle on Apple music, which I can do just as well with the songs on my ipad. But I’m hoping to play with it a bit more and figure out how to get it to play similar artists.

I think I’m going to do that right now. Ciao.

tiiiiiiiired

Sep. 12th, 2025 11:51 am
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Yesterday was all good, got my shots in the morning. I'm now dealing with full body aches hhh and chilling at home. Slept in after getting food and meds, then woke up to find out there was a new Nintendo Direct and some of my wishes came true!!!

Nintendo Direct 9.12.25

Fire Emblem: Fortune's Weave
New Fire Emblem sighted!!!!! It's looking like a prequel(??) or at least related to the lore Fire Emblem Three Houses introduced and I'm ready for a main title FE again aaa. The only bummer is it's exclusive to the Switch 2 and IDK if I will be able to afford getting it by launch. Historically I don't buy "new consoles" until they've been out a couple years... so as exciting as this news is, I probably won't be playing it when it comes out. Oh well, we'll see o/;

HADES II
BUT EVEN MORE EXCITING IS HADES II COMING TO CONSOLE RELEASE AAAAAH. I've been patiently waiting for this <3_<3 I'd seen sneak peaks of it from early access but waited to play until a Switch release. Digital will be out earlier but I prefer physicals so I'll wait for November c:

There were other games I found interesting (and I was flush with affection over the DQVII REIMAGINED reveal) but these two were the key points for me.

I feel like there was something else I wanted to mention... but my brain is such soup right now, hurg. Gotta try to sit up a little longer before I go lie down again.

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